Make a decision

I so badly want to have my own jewelry business. Right now I lack the financial resources. I'm also planning on going into a partnership with my sister-in-law. I realize that right now I need to study technology. I want to become a web developer. I've always had an interest in code but I never thought of myself as smart enough.
I'm learning now that it's not about intelligence but it's about will. I am willing to do what it takes to learn what I need to in order to move forward in my life.
I realized that I've been stuck because I need to get over my bad childhood. What happened back then is not my fault. What is or isn't happening right now is my fault.
I consider myself an artist but I have yet to complete my designs. I start making them and then I stop due to unnecessary family stress. This is my life and I need to focus on me.
I promise that before 2014 is over I will have my designs completed.

What's Going On?

When I created this blog I knew that I would be creating something at least every week. What I have done since first creating this blog is a whole lot of unfinished projects. My plan this year is to finish them all. I mean all of them. What has been holding me back has been lack of self confidence. For some reason I thought I was not worthy of praise. I figured I'm no good since my inspiration comes from other artist, blogs, people, places, things.

Now that I have converted religions I realize that I am just as special as the next person. I do have talent and people tell me that all the time. My canvas for my art is me. I only make what I love. Currently I'm vintage retro glam. I love the style of the 1900s. I was inspired by the show Downtown Abbey. Back then the clothes were very feminine. It made me feel proud to be the woman because the clothes were tailored just right. The accessories were dreamy. I love pearls and lace. I love Mary's style from her hair to her shoes. I loved Edith's wedding dress. Simple, elegant and romantic.

Style is repeated and meshed together. I'm the type of lady that loves to mix current trends with the past. I love ethnic culture as well. A lot of what I make has been inspired from various cultures without me knowing it. I love natural beauty and I love color. My dream is to have my own retail accessory store and help people style themselves.

Fashion is life to me. Expressing myself through fashion gives me confidence. When an outfit is not complete it's hard to feel like I'm my best. I've had plenty of incidences where I did not have the right shoe, coat, or pants and I felt insecure. It's bad when I know I'm not on point, but it's catastrophic when someone else notices and points it out.

What's new?

I am so mad at myself. Since I moved to my new place I haven't been able to find my camera. Now that I found it, I can't find the cord to the battery charger. I have so many things to show you.

I found this new (to me) indie clothing store called Sway Chic. They have the perfect clothing for any gal. Their clothing is comfortable, cute, and affordable. I treated myself to two dresses on my birthday last Friday. On Saturday I took my classy friend Najia there and she just fell in love with the store. She found everything she was looking for. Their clothing is everything a stylish gal could want. Najia likes to be covered up but still trendy, and she found great shirts and accessories there. I have to say that their accessories are one of a kind. If you see a unique piece, grab it! You never know if it will be there again. I love, love, love this store.

What's the Hold Up?

I haven't been in an environment where I could just be myself. I had writer's block, artist's block, and any other kind of block you can name. I just could not be my true self. Now that I made some changes, I can move forward. This experience has been like learning to ride a bike all over again. I can't move forward until I revisit what made me passionate about art and writing in the first place. I haven't started making clothes, jewelry, and henna tattoos like I used to because I have to take care of my bills. Once I have a plan, people will see my work. Everyday I work towards my goals of doing more art projects and it's a nice feeling to know that I'm so close to breaking through my barriers. More of my artsy side coming soon.

Art Lately

I have not been doing much art lately. I have lost my way a little bit. I have been struggling with what I want to do and making a living. I am pulled into so many directions. I am a creative person in all I do, but sometimes I don't think I'm good enough. Thankfully, my friend Gloria reminded me of how talented I am. Since she told me that I have been more confident. I started taking care of myself by organizing my life. I exercise everyday, I write in my journal, I'm learning Spanish, I'm taking care of my naturally beautiful self. I am also being more nice to my family. I have shut them out of my life for so many years that I don't know who they are. Now that I have been spending some quality time with them I realize that they are very supportive of me. Although, I have no art to show you today, you will see something from me this week. Why? Well, I'm sick, so I have more time on my hands. There is a change that is over me and I just feel blessed to be here on this earth. Have a great day and a wonderful week you guys.

Art to Me

I love all kinds of art. I'm just a creative person, but I have had parental figures that told me that I could not make money being an artist and that I should forget about it. So I gave up on it. I have been lost because they asked me to give up a part of me. I just can't do it anymore. I love to sew, I love to make jewelry, I love to sketch, I love to create henna tattoo designs, and most of all I love to write. Art to me is life, inspiration that speaks to people in different ways. Art brings people together, which is why I love it so much. You can have a horrible day and the right music or scene can make that horrible feeling go away. I want to inspire people with my art. I'm not trying to be famous, but I do want people to feel free. So much of society is based upon rules that are sometimes difficult to follow. Art to me is boundless. I think that is why the Diary of Ann Frank and artist like Tupac was so inspirational to people. They were brave enough to speak their minds even when there were unbearable circumstances. It's a great feeling when people admire my various art works. It reassures me that I am on the right path. I think everyone is an artist in their own way and they should explore their artistic side. Do whatever you want and be happy. It's good to be practical but its great to be happy. I think that is why I admire my friend Ricardo. He does what makes him feel happy, if he needs to go away for a while he will. That's something that as an artist I need to work on. I want to become boundless and unafraid of being different. I will and I hope you will too.

2010 Collection Update

I do have some new jewelry coming out but it won't be until November 2010. The inspiration for this collection is my journey through life since college. I met a lot of different people from different countries, and they all have let me with a little inspiration when it comes to my art. Stay tuned.